This morning, after one of those meditations where my brain was playing ping-pong, I moved right into my gratitude practice. It’s become my go-to morning practice to tap into something greater than myself - even when my mind won't "shut off".

I keep the practice simple. On one page, I write what I’m grateful for—like good conversations, small victories, or even my favorite coffee mug. On the next page, I write about what I want to happen in my life, but here’s the catch: I write it as if it’s already happened, with gratitude. It sounds woo-woo, but it works.

Today, one line stood out: “Thank you for helping me to show love to people who feel hard to love.”

At first, it felt like just words. But as I kept writing, I let myself really feel it. And then it hit me—tears. That always happens when I feel deeply connected to something bigger than myself. Call it God, Source, the Universe—whatever resonates with you. It’s this overwhelming energy of love, and it’s messy but beautiful.

I started reflecting on two people in my life who really challenge me. You know the ones—they push your buttons, and it’s hard not to let them get under your skin. Sitting with those feelings, I was reminded of something uncomfortable but true: they’re mirrors. They’re showing me the parts of myself I still feel shame around, the parts I don’t think deserve love.

It’s tough to admit, but I’ve been avoiding this for years. And now, I realize it’s time to stop running from these parts of myself. They don’t need fixing—they just need love. All of me deserves love, even the messy, complicated parts. And guess what? So do you.

How to Believe in Yourself

One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned through practices like gratitude and somatic yoga is how to believe in myself again. Self-trust doesn’t always come easily, especially when life throws curveballs or when past experiences have made us doubt our worth. But here’s the thing: believing in yourself isn’t about being perfect. It’s about accepting yourself as you are, perceived flaws and all.

For me, this journey often starts on the mat. Somatic yoga has been a game-changer. Unlike other types of yoga that focus on achieving a pose or building strength, somatic yoga invites you to slow down and listen to your body. It’s a practice of curiosity and compassion, and it helps rebuild that trust between your mind and body.

When you practice somatic yoga, you start to notice what your body is saying. Maybe you’re holding tension in your shoulders, or your breath feels shallow. Instead of forcing your way through, you learn to ask, “What do I need right now?” That simple question is a powerful act of self-trust. It reminds you that you already have the answers within—you just need to listen.

The Role of Self-Trust in Healing

Self-trust is at the core of healing. It’s what allows us to face those parts of ourselves we’d rather hide and say, “It’s okay. You’re still worthy of love.” But building self-trust takes practice, especially if you’ve spent years doubting yourself or ignoring your needs.

One way to strengthen your self-trust is through journaling. Writing down your thoughts and feelings without judgment can be incredibly freeing. It’s like having a conversation with yourself where you’re finally allowed to be honest. Over time, you’ll notice patterns—moments when your intuition was right, even if you didn’t follow it. Those moments are proof that you can trust yourself.

Another way to build self-trust is by keeping small promises to yourself. Maybe it’s committing to a five-minute meditation each morning or taking a walk in nature once a week. These little acts of showing up for yourself create a foundation of trust that grows over time.

Slow Living Tips to Support Your Healing

If this resonates, I want to offer you some ways to slow down and reconnect. These are simple practices that help me stay grounded and open to healing:

1. Start Your Day Slowly: Carve out just 10 minutes in the morning to sit with a journal, meditate, or enjoy your coffee without rushing. It sets the tone for the day.

2. Explore Somatic Yoga: This practice isn’t about nailing poses—it’s about tuning in. Even a short session can help you feel more connected to your body and emotions. Check out my YouTube series if you need a place to start.
   

3. Get Outside: A walk in nature can work wonders. The fresh air and quiet spaces make it easier to let your thoughts settle and your heart open.

4. Practice Gratitude: Write down a few things you’re thankful for every day. They don’t have to be deep—sometimes the simplest things bring the most joy.

5. Join a Retreat or Class: Stepping out of your routine can give you the space to breathe and reset. I’m hosting virtual classes and retreats designed to help you slow down and tap into your inner wisdom. If that speaks to you, I’d love to have you join.

Finding Balance with Somatic Yoga

Somatic yoga isn’t just a practice—it’s a mindset. It teaches us to move through life with greater awareness and compassion, both for ourselves and others. When we slow down and listen, we create space for healing, growth, and self-discovery.

One of the things I love about somatic yoga is its focus on the present moment. It’s not about where you’re going or what you need to achieve. It’s about being here, now, and trusting that this moment is enough. That’s a powerful lesson in a world that constantly pushes us to do more and be more.

Through somatic yoga, I’ve learned to trust my body again. I’ve learned to see my emotions as teachers rather than problems to fix. And most importantly, I’ve learned that healing doesn’t happen overnight. It’s a journey, and every step—no matter how small—is worth celebrating.

Let the Light In

Healing isn’t easy, but it’s worth it. It starts with noticing those shadowy parts of yourself and choosing to love them instead of hiding them. Take it one step at a time, and remember, you don’t have to do it alone.

If you’re ready to go deeper, virtual somatic yoga and my upcoming retreats are here to support you. Let’s walk this path of healing together.

Building Self-Trust Through Community

Sometimes, the best way to build self-trust is by surrounding yourself with a supportive community. When you’re in a space where you feel seen and valued, it becomes easier to see your own worth. That’s why I’m so passionate about creating spaces—both online and in-person—where people can come together to heal and grow.

Whether it’s through a virtual somatic yoga class or a weekend retreat, these spaces are designed to help you reconnect with yourself and others. They’re a reminder that you’re not alone on this journey and that there’s so much strength in vulnerability.

What Would Happen if You Believed in Yourself?

If you’ve ever found yourself wondering how to believe in yourself, start small. Start by noticing the moments when you feel most at ease, most connected to who you are. Those moments are clues. They’re showing you the way back to yourself.

And here’s the truth: You already have everything you need to heal, grow, and thrive. It’s all within you. Sometimes, you just need a little nudge to see it.

So, here’s my invitation to you: Slow down. Listen to your body. Trust yourself. And remember, every single part of you is worthy of love.

With so much love and compassion for you on this journey; I see you,

Crystal